I am so outrageous, I wear my pride on my sleeve like a bracelet

Anyone that knows me knows that recently I've been struggling to figure out what I want to do in life...I won't lie I've decided nothing apart from the fact that I want to be great at whatever it is I do, not good, not average...great. Not an arrogant statement at all, I just believe I'm capable. The idea of being average is my biggest fear, I'd rather be painted a villain than be the name no one remembers. I'm not seeking approval for my mindset, I just know that I want to be remembered. Besides deep down, I think everyone is capable of being a villain anyway..like most of the material on this album, So Appalled is typical Kanye darkness and is currently what I'm in the mood for when I'm trying to sort out the mess that is my future.

I don't think we'll ever see a period of artistic greatness like the Italian Renaissance...Da Vinci, Raphael, Botticelli, Brunelleschi, Michelangelo...their legacies transcended time, people still look to them as sources of inspiration. That's the kind of sh*t that makes me aspire to greatness, I pray I get there. Sometimes I feel to just give everything up and just paint, I'm good at it, I enjoy it, I should just paint for the rest of my life. Then I look to the masters of art and realise you can be good at so many things in life...I've always been annoyed that I can't draw. I mean, I'm okay...better than the average person maybe but my painting skills are far more superior. So I looked back at Da Vinci's drawings and they gave me life! To measure yourself against a great is daunting, but I guess its all part of the process in becoming great yourself. Lord that was a whole lot of writing, let me just stop now and show you why Da Vinci is the greatest of all time. GOAT status.

I'm not saying I'll ever be as good as Da Vinci, that would be artistic suicide - everyone recognises his legendary status...but by even attempting to achieve a similar level of success, well it's a start. I've decided to start drawing again, lord knows I need the practice, but I just want to become a master of my craft. I don't know what that craft is but I guess I'm starting to find out...